Thursday, December 27, 2007

This is what it's all about...

We went to Christmas Eve services, and Pastor played a video. This was not it...but the message of the video was that Christ's birth was not what was important... it was his death that is what has saved us all... This video just kind of brings that home...THIS is what Christmas is all about! Thanks Brad Paisley and Sara Evens for a beautiful song!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Today...


Would have been my mother's 82nd birthday. She died on May 22, 2006, and I miss her bunches. I wouldn't bring her back to be what she was for all the money in the world, for she was in pain and suffering....but as the Christmas holiday nears I think of her and daddy often.

They wanted so much for us kids. They never really had the means to give it to us. And then there were the other circumstances that kept them from living the dreams that they so wanted to live...

I hope they're together.
I hope they're happy.
I hope that all of the problems that plagued them on this earth have gone and that all that's left is the love they had.

Not all of my siblings share my feelings for our parents. Our parents weren't the best parents in the world, but you have to consider that they didn't have the best role models to work from...

None of it matters now anyway. What is in the past is often best LEFT in the past. Water under the bridge and all of that. Move onward, and hopefully UPward....to better things...a lesson that was taught yet again this week. One I will remember.

Anyway....Happy Birthday Mama...I love you!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Little update on my previous post...

Goodness...within just a couple of hours of posting my previous post, I've been banned from the Shanty!!
Kat called me, let me know that she'd look like a fool if she didn't ban me. Wonder if that's how Jenny felt?

Those girls just don't get it...it's too bad.

I'm pretty much done...

I mentioned in a past post that I was a DT member at the Scrapbook Chalet. When the Chalet transfered to my friend, Kat, I was just automatically dumped as a DT member.
No one talked to me about it...no one asked if I minded, wanted to stay, or told me I wasn't good enough to be on the DT there. It was just assumed that I wouldn't mind being Admin. No one thought about whether or not my feelings would be hurt, but it wasn't important.
Ok...so I'll deal with that. My feelings were hurt, but obviously, Kat's friends Carrie and Kim were more important. I can actually deal with that too....I've learned over the years NOT to put too much importance into internet friendships. They're like the rest of the stuff in our world today...too disposable.
Moving on. I get a call yesterday from Kat, telling me that Carrie and Kim don't want to put me into the product rotation because I hurt Carrie's feelings by "picking on her" when I told her that storms on the US coasts are hurricanes, and when you cross the International dateline they become typhoons. Seems I made her feel stupid by pointing that out. Wasn't my intention, but seems that both Carrie and Kim feel I was dissing Carrie....
Ok...all I can say to that is if the shoe fits, put both of them on! (Who burdens a child with a name like "Calliope" anyway? I'm sure that kid is going to grow up being horibly teased and made fun of..I feel sorry for her, because from what I understand, she's a sweet, loving child...and if she is, her feelings are going to be hurt that much more by the ignorance of her parents in naming her something so easily distorted into nasty names!)

I'm done at the Shanty. It's not worth my time to deal with women who are so petty that they won't even talk about what I've done or give me a chance to apologise for offenses that I wasn't even aware of. I sent PMs to both Carrie and Kim saying that I understood we had a problem and asking if they wanted to talk about it... Neither of them has the intestinal fortitude (the nice way of saying they don't have guts enough) to answer me and tell me first hand what the problem is. They'd rather backstab and whine to Kat behind my back.

So be it. There comes a time, in Minda's (from TS) words, to let go of expectations and accept things the way they are. Wise woman, Minda. I'm having a blast at Tally Scrappers anyway...and Christine has a KILLER inventory in her store...I'm even applying for the DT there...not that I stand a chance of making it, but it's fun to imagine...

Many of my friends are already there. They love it there too, and are loved there. It's a great online community...much like real life communities, with different folks and different personalities and "sub-communities" peacefully co-existing within the bounds of social acceptance. It doesn't matter there that I don't go to church, nor does it matter that I can be a crusty old woman who says what she thinks. I don't know how to explain it. It's just more like "home"....it's more real, warmer, and welcoming than you can imagine....give it a try! :) You'll find it at www.tallyscrappers.com